I never thought that trusting people would be bad or wrong for me! I always thought that I'll be fine, I have my best friend here around so there's nothing i should be worried about, i can trust her and she can trust me too, and i trust her enough to tell her my secrets, what's going on with my life, how everything goes with me no matter if it's bad or good...
But of course that was just a dream, because in my real world, it never happens, this whole things i thought i had are now gone, they've been gone along ago.
I put my whole trust in someone that i thought she is my best friend, but i've been betrayed by her. Now after being broken trusted and broken hearted, i stopped trusting others, not even my other friends, not even my parents, and sometimes i feel like i can't even trust myself enough to hold on secrets of my own, because i'll be too scared to borrow them to others and never get them back...
So no i live with my hard decision of not having my own secrets, because i know that if i get closer again to anyone, i'll give him or her my secrets, and i'm actually afraid that i'm gonna be broken trusted and hearted again.
Now i live with the thought that says : " I'de better stay away from others when things go well between us ". This thought gives me positive thinking that i won't have to be afraid of getting broken or something, even though i'm hurting myself just by living like that, because i know that things are never going to be ever as they were before in my life..
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